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Kwing
Once upon a time, water taught itself how to feel pain.

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Well Shit

Posted by Kwing - March 27th, 2011


Haven't given up on Harvey Brawl or Diablo, but I'm procrastinating an awful lot. HB's multiplayer has SO much script and I cannot stand weeding through all of it. Also some bugs I can't get to the bottom of. Diablo requires a LOT of trial-and-error for me to establish a decent balance of stats, but I really don't feel like working on that either. Also I've been thinking a little about Twins V3, which was a noble idea but can't be expanded much. The presentation's still amazing, though, and it's black and white so I may release a demo and then call it quits on that.

Overall I haven't been too motivated to do anything, but at the same time I feel kind of restless. On the upside, I found a Sylosis music video in my subscription box from NBE, and I'm totally turned onto this band now. The music is truly incredible.

PS: I may end up in juvy in the near future. If I vanish off of Newgrounds, the few people who care will know why :P


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Motivation is the key factor in finishing anything. Its hard to get it back when you've lost it. My only suggestion is to play some games..I've found that playing games similar to what I want in my own game helps me get back to making it.

I've been doing that but gaming has been more of an escape than inspiration. Right now matters with my social life (or lack of) have gotten in the way, and I don't have the energy for creative thinking I used to.

03/27/11 - Someone posts GOOD music in a Newgrounds news post.

:D Thanks!! Sylosis really blew me away, and I'm glad you like it too. ^-^

Sorry to hear that. But have some confidence and remember that you don't have a lack of a social life, and that you apply yourself to other things. Flash developers aren't very common, especially at our age. Don't let something like that get in the way of doing something you love (assuming you love to make stuff in flash).

Of course I love making games. But right now I'm worried about more important things. Violence, accidents, drugs, intolerance... Things that are a bit higher priority. Problem is I can't do a goddamned thing about any of it.

Well, best of luck to you, regardless. Hope things work out.

Thanks.

Good luck

I've read your topic, don't worry about about being alone.

I don't really have friends, I never really did, I was bullied a lot too.

I was so angry back then, so angry that I don't want to talk about it.

I just gave up on human acceptance, I just let go, and instead I just seek truth.

Have you read into any philosophy? theologies?(other then mainstream exoteric/literal stuff)

"He was absolutely alone, with no single friend of his own kind to comfort him; and between one and none there lies an infinity" Nietzsche "Schopenhauer as Educator"

I enjoy philosophy, but most of my own philosophical exploits lead me to believe the purpose of life comes in social interactions.

The purpose of life is non objective.

I agree.

Also, Age of Empires 3.

DONT VANISH!!!! NOOOOOO!!!

I TREAASURE OUR FRIENDSHIP!!!!!

I would rather starve on the street, unable to get a job due to a false criminal record, than live my life knowing I gave up on something I believed in.
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